January Thoughts on Graduating

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There’s snow on the ground outside, and the wind is biting, sharp little teeth of ice that nip at your fingers if you forget gloves (and you do, so often) to venture outside. Graduation is a long way off, but not at all, and the future questions are being asked more and more frequently. 

‘What are your plans for after you graduate?’ ‘Applied to anywhere yet?’ ‘Grad scheme? Travel?’ ‘Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years?’ ‘How’s your cv looking?’ ‘Have you thought about employment?’ 

They’re like the fast, hidden currents in a deceptively calm sea.

2016 is the year of my graduation. Class of, swishy, overpriced gowns and caps that if you want to toss you have to pay for. Photos in front of Firth Court for better memories than those spent drinking too much tea and trying not to cry over books with words that sort-of-don’t-really-make-sense in the IC. Repetitive strain and definitely needing a new pair of glasses because of so many goddamn online papers that hold the secrets to getting a 1st.

2016 is the year I finally get pushed into the real world, where weekends are not the same as weekdays, where money is hard earned and jobs are hard-to-find. Where suddenly you have to go about meeting people in a way that doesn’t start with ‘hey we do the same degree’ or ‘uni of or hallam?’. 

2016 is the year I say goodbye to education (for now??) and I am fuckin’ terrified. 

But 2016 is also the year I end writing papers for grades and I end not writing for fun and I end not having enough time to do things well. I end staring at a guitar I bought because I wanted to learn and I start actually having the time to learn it. I start differentiating between days again because weekends are not the same as weekdays – it’s not the same monotonous cycle of revision and notes and having that 12k word dissertation just hanging there. I start travelling, working, living, breathing in a different way than nearly 19 year of education has let me. 

At least, I hope. 

2016 is the end of many things, and the start of many things. And right now, my thoughts on graduation are that it’s real and it is happening, and I’m not sure what to make of it. 

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  1. May Cho
    January 17, 2016 / 2:50 pm

    I can only imagine how huge graduation must be for you, Fii. I'm wishing you all the best and I can't see where life takes you. All the best! <3May | THE MAYDEN | bloglovin'

  2. All4 Barbie
    January 17, 2016 / 4:31 pm

    Hello from Spain: congratulations. Keep in touch

  3. Martha Edwards
    January 17, 2016 / 5:40 pm

    Ahhhh this got me feeling terrified, even though I'm still in second year 🙁 You sound like you're well on your way to aceing your degree though, Fii, best of luck! xMartha Jane | http://www.marthajanemusic.com

  4. Emma Murphy
    January 17, 2016 / 6:09 pm

    I wish you the best of luck for your future, I am finding it terrifying on deciding what A levels to take as it is like mapping out my future, I can't even imagine what it would be like leaving education altogether!Emma’s World x

  5. Meg Siobhan
    January 17, 2016 / 6:28 pm

    It will be such a weight off your shoulders once you graduate! So proud of you bb. Although I do feel that the fact I didn't have a plan as such and just…hoped I'd find something probably wasn't the best idea! Meg | A Little Twist Of…

  6. Eleanor Hirst
    January 17, 2016 / 6:30 pm

    You're gonna ace that first girl. I believe in you! E x elleanorwears.com

  7. Keri H
    January 17, 2016 / 9:24 pm

    Wow, graduating is such a milestone! I wish I was graduating this year, but unfortunately got one more year to go!Enclothed Cognition

  8. Adaleta
    January 18, 2016 / 4:24 am

    Graduating is such a huge milestone in life, and I congratulate you on being so close to the end. I despises tests (I was never a good test taker) and I was so relieved to finally be done. Of course, things change once you graduate but it'll be the beginning of the rest of your adult life 😉 xx adaatude.com

  9. Carina Chung
    January 18, 2016 / 10:21 am

    I'm graduating this year too and boy is it scary. Both very scary and very exciting. I get is anxious thinking about the future (or just this year)! I actually found your post inspirin! Especially the last part! ??Cheers to a new life, hopefully one that is better, maybe harder, but filled with so much motivation and fulfilment. Xx Carina

  10. Laura Jones
    January 18, 2016 / 7:42 pm

    good luck with the months leading up to graduation! i graduated this summer, so i know how strange it feels! though, at least for me, being pushed into the 'real' world didn't really happen that much as i'm still figuring out what to do next. so if you do have a plan that's great, but if you don't that isn't the worst thing either! something will always come up, so all the best! xx

  11. Zoha Fatima
    January 19, 2016 / 9:00 am

    Stay optimistic and positive. It may sound intimidating but it is what YOU make of it. Be passionate and do what you love and always always put your happiness before anything else. Good luck and I can't wait to see what 2016 brings for you 🙂 Zoha x – ZOE AND TIMA

  12. Jasmin Charlotte
    January 24, 2016 / 9:45 pm

    Woo I was so excited to graduate! I never pondered it much, I just knew it was finally time to get out there and travel. I hope your graduation goes well! Jasmin Charlotte

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